Mimpi yang sempurna

This is my beloved "sis" Suzy... kawin gak ek...




Here's a few: Sarawak trip, Suzy's wedding.

How we ROCK the house down!!!

"The BIG SHOW"




While recording the new upcoming 'single' - "Untitled" --->










<--- This pic was taken by a friend of ours during the show... pandai tul... hehehe :)








(all pic are taken with extra weight effect... so nampak besar than usual... hahhaha...)



I'll be postin' some other photos later... I'm BORED... been cuti for 3 MONTH now!!! Damn!!!

As i remembered

Hmm... its less than 2 weeks before the big gig on the 24th. We're all hype out but still i'm still heavy hearted since my dad passed away.

Me and dad was not always in the same direction. We're not close at all to say at first. We're both a bit ego i think. One thing i couldn't forget was the week after my gig a few month ago. I brought back home and paste a lot of pictures of the gig we have performed earlier. I also put in a few video recording clip on my desktop. He didn't want to see my clip when i put it on. I don't care at all if he were to see it or not. Few of my relatives also come and watch the clip.

That night, while i was sleeping, at around 2 something i woke up. I saw the hall light was on. The computer was at the hall. There he was, looking thru my entire clip with his hand tapping the computer table. And i, i just stand there, feeling happy. Happy to know that he's proud of what i'm doing. For that memories was PRICELESS.

This coming 24th... i promiss that it will be a big gig for cloudburst. For it will be a special day that i will perform as a token of appreciation for my dad. I will make u proud someday. You will be proud. Tak kira how much i dis-obey u, how much i yell and scream at you, how much i ignore you... ur the person that i respect the most. Semoga dia ditempat yang baik disana. Amin!!!

Al Fatihah!!!

Blow the outside world

Nothing seems to kill me no matter how hard I try
Nothing is closing my eyes
Nothing can beat me down for your pain or delight
And nothing seems to break me
No matter how hard I fall nothing can break me at all
Not one for giving up though not invincible I know

I've given everything I need
I'd give you everything I own
I'd give in if it could at least be ours alone
I've given everything I could
To blow it to hell and gone
Burrow down in and
Blow up the outside world

Someone tried to tell me something
Don't let the world get you down
Nothing will do me in before I do myself
So save it for your own and the ones you can help

Want to make it understood
Wanting though I never would
Trying though I know it's wrong
Blowing it to hell and gone
Wishing though I never could
Blow up the outside world

Running on low

Mom is trying to play cool...but deep down, she's not. I myself are trying to pick myself up. Sure is different without a father figure in the house now. Damn... i just couldn't find what to write anymore. In the end... all i can do is to pray for his best.

Mom is now looking up to me and has brought up the question of my future. Nak cucu dah pulak. Ntah la mak... no ideas.

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"Now i feel, i'm going older,
And the song that i've sung, echo in the distance,
Like a sound, of a windmill going round,
Guess i'll always be a soldier of fortune".
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" Whatsoever I've feared has come to life
Whatsoever I've fought off became my life
Just when everyday seemed to greet me with a smile
Sunspots have faded and I'm doine time
Cause I fell on black days

Whomsoever I've cured I've sickened now
Whomsoever I've cradled I've put you down
I'm a search light soul
They say but I can't see it in the night
I'm only faking when I get it right
Cause I fell on black days
How would I know that this could be my fate".

The Saddest Week in Life

Ya Allah... this might have been the toughest week i've endured. As my dad passed away a week ago, Khaliz grandma followed. She died on the 5th on December 2005. I'm still tired by all the driving. Today... i lost another great person in my family. My most beloved uncle died today following his brother footsteps. Moga moga Tuhan cucuri rahmat keatas mereka.

Al- Fatihah

I'm sad... so sad.

(But i know that my uncle is heading to HEAVEN because Allah has already promise him one (my uncle is "Special"-if u can understand)

Tears In Heaven

As most of you would know, on the 28th of November, my father died at the age of 63. After suffering nearly 3 month of pain suffered upon the aftermath of his car accident.

Moga Allah mencucuri rahmat keatas roh ayahanda.

Hope that ayah won't worry about the family for i have commit myself on giving what the family needs. I'll took over the family with grace and hope someday when we met, u can say that u're proud of me. Amin!!!

P/s: I'm heart broken for i couldn't see him defore he passed away. Eventho i have the chance to baca yassin, mandikan jenazah my dad, and tanamkan... rasanya tak cukup. Plus, when mother called me to inform about him, i was busy celebrating my birthday dinner... my first and only birthday dinner. It will be a memorable birthday for me as i buried my late father, on the 29th of November at 11.00 a.m. That is the saddest birthday present i'd ever had.

ALLAH AMPUNKAN DOSA DOSANYA...

Excited Screamers

Well well well...
Guess if nothing goes wrong, we'll be performing again on the 24th of December at JAM ASIA, Sri Hartamas. Thank you to Irman from "Mush Button" for inviting us. There are altogher 8 band that will be performing on that day. We're playing 2nd. Show starts at 8.00 p.m. till midnight. Hope u'll can come.

"Support local act"

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"here I am expecting just a little bit
too much from the wounded
but I see,
see through it all,
see through,
and see you.

so I threw you the obvious
do you see what occurs behind the
eyes of a fallen angel
eyes of a tragedy

well, oh well..

apparently nothing.
apparently nothing at all"

Far beyond driven

I AM BORED...

Kenapa i'm bored? sebabnya... TAK KERJA.

Kenapa tak kerja? sebabnya... SEKOLAH CUTI.

Hmm... 2 bulan laa nmpaknya tak buat apa apa. I've thinking about doing some extra money tapi tak tau nak buat apa. Guess all the travelling from KL to PENANG and back to KL akan sedikit sebanyak akan mengurangkan my wallet. Takpelah, rezeki kalau guna utk benda baik... Allah bagi balik.

Received an offering to perform in a gig insyaAllah bulan 12 nanti. Hopefully jadi. Banyak "star" yang akan perform katanya. Cloudburst pun dah ready for a comeback after berbulan-bulan tak buat any performance. InsyaAllah, the next new recording will be on this coming December. Finish polishing the upcoming new single - "If i could be anybody". While practicing this new song at "AkarKarya Studios", we were very lucky that our session was witnessed by Acis (Sheila Majid's husband, owner of AkarKarya, musician and producer), Afdlin Shauki (the comedian), AC Mizal (the comedian), and a few other celebrities. Hahahha... gempak!!! Afdlin was typically drifting with the song and showed us a thumbs up. Cool. This song will make an impact for the industry i hope. One more thing, Cloudburst is now a 5 piece band. Bigg will be filling the band as the keyboardist. Cool.

Thats it for now. I'm still feeling down for some reason not worth mentioning. Im just plain stupid i guess. For now... have to bare with it first, enjoy and waste money on gadgets :(

Credit card bill mesti banyak punyalah. Hahhahaha... gila betul.

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" Waiting, watching the clock, it's four o'clock, it's got to stop
Tell him, take no more, she practices her speeches
As he opens the door, she rolls over...
Pretends to sleep as he looks her over
She lies and says she's in love with him, can't find a better man...
She dreams in color, she dreams in red, can't find a better man...
Can't find a better man"

Panic Prone

Wah wah wah... lama betul laa tak update. Busy macam menteri besar. Anyway, before i start to sort out what to say, i would like to wish you all - SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI and MAAF ZAHIR dan BATIN.

Anyway... this year's raya was a different from any other Raya. For this year, all of us have to beraya at the hospital. Dad is still in the hospital. Recovering... alhamdulillah. Went back on Raya's eve to perform solat aidilfitri kat kampung and later drive back to Hospital Taiping where my father's at. Sempat la menjalankan duty as i've just received my paycheck. Hahahhahaha. Semu dapat extra bonus include my grandma, all my uncle and aunties plus all the children. Tapi kira ok laa... just considered it as an amal jariah. What turn around comes around. Nanti Allah bagi balik rite.

Hmm... nothing much to talk about. Lately lost my special ability to crack good joke. Seems a lot of things happened and i'm in no good mood to crack up jokes. Bila lama tak buat lawak, susah pulak. My friends always like it when i crack up some crazy jokes. For all my friends... give me time, will be back to my own self. Tunggu. Hhahahha

That's it i think.

p/s: Tahniah diucapkan to my fellow colleagues (Cik Hanim Suhana) yang akhirnya melangsungkan majlis pertunangannya. Alhamdulillah. Kahwin le cepat ek. Aku lambat lagi... still menunggu masa nak spit it out. Damn... what a coward :(

"I'm cautious of who I would call a friend
Who you acquaint is who you are
The darkest hours are when we choose a side
So make your pick and take a fall...

Say something
Make us proud, cast the first stone
Say any - anything at all

Make a move..."

Caught Beneath The Landslide

Its a week now since the horrible accident. My father is still in serious condition. He's suffering. Everytime my mom, or my grandmom started to talk to him, tears will start falling down his eyes. My father is someone who thinks a lot. All i can do is just remind him that everything will be find. Ayah tak perlu nak fikir sangat. I'm here and running the family. Mom said to me, kita kena redha and be prepared for the worst. For sekarang kita doa saja.

My health is deteriorating too. I'm almost at the end of a near cliff. Can i handle this situation? I hope so.

Here, i want to say thank you to someone that have been very helpful. Without you even noticed, u've helped a lot. And because of your talk, i can remain to be calm. Thank you, i hope u know who u are. You are indeed a good friend. And to ohers too, you all have just been so... caring. Thanks. Please continue with our prayers.

Bringing the crowd together

My dear friends...

On last monday... my parents met with an horrible accident. My dad is currently in I.C.U unit and my mom was cleared out but she still couldn't move properly.

I myself never plead in my entire life, but now... i really need your help. Please pray for my father's recovery. Only God can repay your good kindness.

For all of my friends who flood my phone with messages.. THANK YOU. I love you all. Thanks.

PLEASE!!!

Uncomfortable tales of discomfort

HANDSET HILANG!!!!!! ... tension betul. Dah lama pakai that 012 number. It has been a joyous 5 years chatting, smsing, calling and etc.

Geram, mad, sad at the same time!!!

Fix You - Coldplay

"Fix You"

when you try your best but you don’t succeed
when you get what you want but not what you need
when you feel so tired but you can’t sleep
stuck in reverse

and the tears come streaming down your face
when you lose something you can’t replace
or you love someone but it goes to waste
what could be worse?

lights will guide you home
and ignite your bones
and i will try to fix you

high up above or down below
when you’re too in love to let it go
but if you’ll never try, you’ll never know
just what you’re worth

lights will guide you home
and ignite your bones
and i will try to fix you

Tears stream down on your face
When you lose something you cannot replace

Tears stream down on your face
And I...

Tears stream down on your face
I promise you, I will learn from my mistakes

Tears stream down on your face
And I...

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you.


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Its a very nice song. And for the first time... cloudburst have done a cover on it and we're very proud of ourself. Cool song indeed.

If i could... i will certainly would... that's a promise.

Kerja gila... hehhehe

Esok - Sabtu

Hal - Cousin's convocation

Plan - Going to JB

How - By car

Departure - 6.30 a.m

Arrive - within 10.00 to 10.30

Back to KL - Around Zohor

Why? - Malam jamming

Yeayy!!!

(tak sempat jumpa some of my friends kat JB, next time - next time i'm in JB i'll give a copy of my band's CD to you all... ingatkan ye)

How i sum up my 5 month?

(---H-E-L-L---)

Have been working for 5 month now as a lecturer/instructor at Maktab Tentera Diraja Malaysia. Been working like a camel on a desert, without pay check. It seems like there is some problem with my salary process. SO!!! i have been living 4 the past 5 month relying on my savings. Dahla i have to use up all my savings... i have to go to Seremban la... then Johore... later Penang... then Terengganu, then Pahang, lepas tu Sarawak... after that Seremban again for 2 weeks in a row itupun tak kira all other expenses yang i have to keluarkan for trip all over KL. Conference laa... talks laa... seminar la... presentation laa... My cousin semua dah ckp yang aku ni macam ROBOCOP!!! Hhahahhaa. I don't even have time to go to visit my ibu angkat (my ex-lecturer), didn't have the chance to jumpa Bigg's family (well... i can say lebih kurang macam my family gak) - uncle Hatta, Auntie, and espesially bigg's lovely sister, Nadia (who always stood by me just in case if i fall). Abg bob rindu kat adik.

At first... i stayed at Khaliz's house and later occupy a new house with Bigg and Pian. We're doing ok. Smpailah i decided to move back to Khaliz's apartment sebab i couldn't afford the house rent. Bukan tak cukup, cuma to ease the flow of money from my saving. Bigg was telling me all this difficult things that he has to endure when i move back to Khaliz's apartment. So... being a nice friend (i always do this), i decided not to switch apartment. Hmm... for a friend sake.. takpe lah. Bankrupt pun bankrupt lah.

Later... after 3 weeks... bigg decided to move back to his parent's house atas desakan keluarga. I was so... pissed off. I was mad and i was sad. After what i did, he just walk out from the house. Tapi now, i'm ok with it. Takpelah.... dah mak bapak suruh. Tak baik ingkar ckp orang tua. Now... it seems like that house has lost its ummphh!! Hmm. I don't know what to do. I'm in a corner. Kesian pulak kat Pian. He's happy that i'm there. Ntahla...

Fuel is another major thing. Bila pakai wira memang terasa betul. My plan utk pakai V6 pun have to re-schedule to next year. Nak buat mcm mana. Fuel prices is insanely high. Planning to buy a big bike for a while until my financial are back stable.

But on top of that... i'm doing ok. I've endure so... many hardship while growing up. Sabar sajalah. Not to say tak bersyukur... kena bersyukur jugak. Bersyukur that i am still alive and bersyukur there's a few who still make my life a cheerful one. Thank you. I hope u know who u are. World is a better place with these great people around me.

SOUND OFF!!

Cloudburst will be back soon. New song... New Style... New Directions.

CLOUDBURST will be going WORLDWIDE.... very soon. I hope!!
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Like the naked leads the blind
I know I'm selfish I'm unkind
Sucker love I always find
Someone to bruise and leave behind

All alone in space and time
There's nothing here but what here's mine
Something borrowed something blue
Every me and every you
Every me and every you
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Turn - Travis

I want to see what people saw
I want to feel like I felt before
I want to see the kingdom come
I want to feel forever young
I want to sing
To sing my song
I want to live in a world where I belong
I want to live
I will survive
And I believe that it won’t be very long
If we turn...
Then we might learn

So where’s the stars
Up in the sky
And what’s the moon
A big balloon
We’ll never know unless we grow
There’s so much world outside the door
I want to sing
To sing my song
I want to live in a world where I’ll be strong
I want to live
I will survive
And I believe that it won’t be very long
If we turn...
And if we turn...
Then we might learn

And if we turn...
Then we might learn
Learn to turn

Sleeping Beauty

Delusional
I believe I can cure it all for you, dear
Coax or trick or drive or
drag the demons from you
Make it right for you sleeping beauty
Truly thought
I can magically heal you

You're far beyond a visible sign of your awakening
Failing miserably to rescue

Sleeping Beauty

Drunk on ego
Truly thought I could make it right
If I kissed you one more time to
Help you face the nightmare
But you're far too poisoned for me
Such a fool to think that I can wake you from your slumber
That I could actually heal you..

Sleeping Beauty
Poisoned and hopeless
You're far beyond a visible sign of your awakening
Failing miserably to find a way to comfort you

Far beyond a visible sign of your awakening
And hiding from some poisoned memory

Poisoned and hopeless
Sleeping Beauty

Nutshell

We chase misprinted lies
We face the path of time
And yet I fight
And yet I fight
This battle all alone
No one to cry to
No place to call home

My gift of self is raped
My privacy is raked
And yet I find
And yet I find
Repeating in my head
If I can't be my own
I'd feel better dead

And you thought it was there...

And you thought it was there...
But it was not
All the time.
But you waste it all on dreams
A dream you couldn't have.
You giggle and you laugh,
Like a stupid looking horse.
Then you smile and you grin
To wipe that sorry a** of yours.
But in the end...
You're never here... you're there
You're never there... you're nowhere.

--Bobby--

All humans ever do was dreaming. You pile up a lot of crap into a big dream that you create and smile for hours for something that was not even there. I make dreams too... and i dream a lot. A dream that is almost possible to have... but a dream trully most heavenly expensive that can be cherish, if i had.

-COOL-