The revolution begins - Tonight.

Pemberita: Encik, apa azam tahun baru encik.
Bobby : This year? Just wanna be happy. And make others around me - happier.
Perberita : Encik Bobby Cardozo, apakah pandangan encik tentang bencana tsunami baru2 ini?
Bobby : Oh, sedeh sekali. Marilah kita menderma, supaya org yg tak happy, boleh happy mcm saya. hahahhahahha!!!. SMS ... AMP and send it to 32323 (setiap msg cost you Rm 1 je)
Pemberita : Baiknya encik ni
Bobby : Oh well, saya suka angkat bakul sendiri. Hhahaha :)

Damn bored today!!


"You used to beg me, To take, Care of things, And smile at the thoughts, Of me failing. But long before, Having hurt, I'll send the pain below, I'll send the pain below." Chevelle - Send the pain below.

Make Yourself

Need... sleep. Need to sleep. Have to sleep.
Cannot!!!

Today ust be the tiredest day of my life. Sembahyang jumaat pun mcm nak jatuh je. Haiyaaa, what happen hah?

This evening, have to send stuff to a friend of mine. Later, have to pack things, before that, gonna have to wash the car. Later at night... probably baru boleh off to bed.

Today was hectic.
Today was near hell.

SLEEP!!!! SLEEPP!!! SLEEPPPP!!


"We get some rules to follow, That and this, these and those. No one knows. We get these pills to swallow, How they stick in your throat, Tastes like gold. Oh, what you do to me, No one knows" Queen Of The Stoneage - No One Knows.

Endless Nameless

Pukul berapa datuk harimau...
- pukul 4.30 pagi
Pukul berapa datuk harimau...
- pukul 5.00 pagi
Kenapa datuk harimau tak tido lagi?
- datuk harimau got migrain again.
Will you be allright datuk harimau?
- i will if i can get enough sleep, damn. It has been days now.


"And I listen, oh, for the voice inside my head. Nothin', I'll do this one myself,
Oh, ah, and the barrel waits, trigger shakes, aimed right at my head. Won't you help me?, help me from myself" taken from State Of Love and Trust performed by Pearl Jam

In Hiding (poem)

In Hiding

It has been hours,
hours to to days,
and days to months,
eventually years.

Ignoring to hear,
holding down with tear,
Hiding from her
Raging with fear.

Everything will be good,
Everything will be fine,
Something will burn your mood,
Crying inside u'll find

I missed you,
i really do.

You're lying,
who do you think i am?


"Pardon we while i burst, into flames, i got enough from the world, and its people mindless games, so pardon me, while i burn, and rise above the flame, pardon me, pardon me, for never be the same" Pardon Me - Incubus

Everything's unsure until its sure.

Hi... nothing new. Just as bored as usual. Will be going back to KL probably this sunday. The boss and his wife have been babbling a lot when i tell them that i am ging back. They said
(lakonan semula)

Ayah: apa yg ada kat KL tu? duduk saja la kat rumah. Buat habis duit saja.
Mak : duduk rumah tolong mak.
Aku yg ayu: tapi! (sebelum sempat ckp...)
Mak : buat apa yg nak duduk KL lama-lama. Ada girlfriend la tu? (ni apa melalut ni)
Aku yg ayu: Ada la kerja sikit. Next week probably (waah, ckp probably ngan mak tuu) balik Penang balik.
Ayah : berapa lama kat KL
Aku yg ayu : tak lama sangat. paling lama pun 2 minggu. Next month dah start kerja. (harap2)
Mak : kirim salam kat pak jang and mak jang. (dah bagi le tu, hehee)
Aku yg ayu : Thanks mom (ni aku saja je tambah).

hmmm... so, all my crazy friends. Wait there in coming. Your insane friend is coming home.

Nak pesan anything from Penang?

Until tomorrow... i'm gone!!

p/s: waa... thanks to my teacher, manage to add a new line for the navigational bar. Thank you (u know who u are)

"Like a leach,I hold on... as if we belonged,To some, precious pure dream. Cast off, you've seen what's beneath, Now fail me." Chevelle - Closure

The boy who ROCK the world

Mohd Syahmi - 8 months

The is a picture of my cousin. A very playful lad. Now he's 8 month and had already started talking. He knows to ask for milk, he can now call for his parents and recently, he called my father as "abah" (because my dad loves and cares for him a lot - not to mention that the baby got lots of money from him). Anak sendiri pun dapat sikit je. Clever little boy. Pandai ambik hati uncle dia.

He also quite fond of me. So, basically boleh bawak him anywhere for he would not cry (except when he's hungry).

Hmm... what else? Nothing. We'll see tomorrow. I'm OUT!!


"And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming, all the moments of truth in your life, when everying feels like the movies, there you bleed just to know you're alive" from The Goo Goo Dolls - Iris

Changes (poem)

-Changes-
by Bob Cloudburst

Everyday i see my life,
Pain, suffering were off my sin,
Down at arms, the anger i drive,
Thru the hole, without a scene.

You've guide me thru
like a stick on a glue
A wish of joy
Upon an unlucky boy.

I feel our bond
I feel the blend
I hold thy doubt
i hold thy hand

For i'm fine, i'm doing great
Hope as it too you, when do we meet?
To say thanks, you've provide the rope
You've changed my life, you've given me hope.

FRIENDSHIP = LIFE

"I've given everything i need, i've give everything i've own, i'd give anything, so at least live me all alone, I've given everything i love..." blow out the outside world by Soundgarden

The Day I Try To Live (poem)

Questions and Answers
by Bobby Cardozo

Escaping every fact
Nodding to every questions.
Did it inspire you to run?
Would that inspire you to lie?

You run, fall.
You hide, you crawl
Did you see yourself?
Did you feel yourself?

All the things you do - you messed it
All the talk you gave - you blew it
Do you sure you wanna be love?
You wanted to be care?

You'll end up blowing it,
Making the other heart - broken,
Choose, and conspirate,
Think and considerate.



"Oh no, not me, we never lost control, the face, to face, with the man who sold the world" as performed by Nirvana - The Man Who Sold The World

A Life Less Ordinary

Woohooo...

Malaysia won 2-1 against a hard fought Indonesia. Well done. But i was a bit dissappointed with how they played the game when they were leading 2-1. They turned from being offensive to a direct defensive mood. Malaysia was lucky enough for the Indonsz (hahaha, cool sungguh) might have score another 2 or 3 more goals.

Enough about that. It seem like my team Liverpool will be facing Southampton today morning (Malaysia time) at Anfield. Mintak minta menang. Aimar has declared his interest in joining Liverpool. Cool.. best news ever.

Hmmm... that's it i think. For now.

Bobby's out!!

"A long december, and there's reason to believe, maybe this year, would be better than the last. I can't remember, the last thing that you've said when you're leaving, all the days goes by so fast" A Long December as performed by Counting Crows

This is a call

Hmm... i am still trembling now. The thought that i were saved by cancelling the trip to Pantai Batu Feringhi still haunting me. Now, i have to drive all the way across the Penang Bridge to fetch my uncle from the airport. Scary nih!!

For those who read this --- do pray for my save journey.

Pakcik aku ni pun, takde masa lain ke nak balik Malaysia. Duduk je la atas kapal tu. Well, he's the captain of a cargo ship.

Hmm.. nothing new, except for went to a guitar shop today. Bought over a guitar string set. Having lunch at McD. This so not interesting. Damn... i need to get back to KL. Really missed the band members. Didn't have the urge practice alone by myself. Hmm dahla in 2 weeks time there's bound to be another show. Arghh!! ...this boringness is unbearable!!

ahh... i've read the entry on Ainie's blogpage today. She mentioned something about Karma. Hmm... well. i have always believe in karma. For me... what turns around, comes around. That is why i have been trying to be nice with everyone, but for now... everyone kinda having a secret agenda behind my back. Berapa lama bley tahan... tahan je la.


"I got scratches all over my arms, one for each days, since i felt apart. I did... all i have to do, if there was a reason, i was you" - Footsteps by Pearl Jam

Did You Feel Me? (Poem)

Did You Feel Me?
by Bobby Cardozo


Saw you move,
See you laugh
Turn it up, heard enough.
Fill them in,
To like what u've done.
So listen up,
Feel the pain.
Hustle up,
All those screaming friends,
Became open up,
Became open up,
Till you're done.
and you're done.


"Here i am expecting just a little bit, emm.. too much from, the wounded, but i see... i see thru it all, see it thru... i see you" 3 libras by a perfect circle

The man behind the figure

The most recent picture of me. Yes, i have been transformed into this hedious creature. What a disaster. Forgive me. Never ment to be so cold.

Well... nothing new. Seems like a lot more poeple have been found dead. Al Fatihah to those unfortunate. Malaysia have never faced something like this tsunami. That only shows that there have been too many bad people around. Where Allah the Almighty has finally shown His power. Tu pun banyak yang tak bersyukur. Hmm... as for me, i'm lucky not to be in any harm.

Well. nothing much to say. Maybe tomorrow then.

"low light... I need the light, i'll find my way, from home but still, the dream.. i see" as performed by Pearl Jam in Low Light.

On the losing side again

TODAY... was HELL. Marah ni. Bought a new cd yesterday. Tried it today... and suddenly... POOFF!! kokocrunch!! The CD Player eat off my new cd. Dammit!!. Couldn't even eject it. Habis laa my new Nirvana Boxset cd.

Manage to wake up late today. A bit worried of the outcome of West Bromwich Albion vs Liverpool. Yeay, my team won yet again. Liverpool win with a 5 to 0 scoresheet. Now.. i hope that the team complete the signing of Fernando Morientes. Would be a great news for the Reds fan.

Actually i am very thankful to Allah today. Me and my friends were thinking on having a swim at Batu Feringhi, Penang. But i don't know why, we decided to pull the plan off. If we'd were to go, Allahualam, entahla. Might be trapped or even worst, dead. Alhamdulillah.

Today is yet another boring day. We'll see tomorrow.


"So this is life, it's so wonderful... given by God, given by God, Though this is life, it's so colourful... given by God, given by God" - taken from the song Wonderful by Cloudburst.

The "IT" Factor

I - A Dead Poet, also know as Bobby Cardozo, and Bob Cloudburst is now officially a... BLOGGER (why? do not ask). Drop by anytime for i'll post some news regarding myself, my other identities self and my band news.

Speedy update

* check out Xfresh.Fm, Cloudburst's song will be played soon on the radio. Cool... so cool.
* there will be a show at Paul's Place damansara where Cloudburst will be among the participant. I'll give you the update later. Date to be confirmed later.
* the album Cloudburst - Running On Low, might probably in stores early 2005. Going to be around Rm10 per album. Support us.
* also check http://cloudburst_online.tripod.com

Cloudburst aftershow snap - Sunway Hotel 

Hahahahahahha

Well... it is almost 5.30 a.m. and still widely awake. Ntah, could let this eyes close for now. Maybe having this blog was a great idea (thanks Ainie). Or maybe it is just an excuse. An excuse for not sleeping, so there would be no more bad nightmares. Hahaha... not that i am penakut, but been having bad nightmares lately. Have been dreaming about death, dream about lying alone on the hospital bed, scary betul.

Couldn't actually see my future ahead. Yes, work will eventually come, but for now... i am jobless.

Today, i've been to 3 wedding caremonies, and for tomorrow got another 2 more. Out of total 5, 3 of them are among my close school friends wedding. My grandmother has been talking about having cicit from her best cucu (obviously me and another cousin of mine - mokhsein) Aiiyooo. Sorry laa nenek, we'll see our rezeki orait. Hehhehe. What should i say? Hahhaha. Ahh.. semua tu small stuff (really?, ntah).

Tomorrow, got to have to go to one of my school buddy wedding ceremony. I am so happy for him. Better still, he'll be marrying someone very dearly to me, my first ex (tingkatan 5 tuu - hahhaha aku ketua pengawas yang jiwang, mesti tak percaya aku ketua pengawas ni). Hahahhaha.

Bsst gak have a blog ni. Can express anything. Jangan melampau sudah. Peace!!

--Cloudburst Rock On--

"Black hole sun, won't you come, and wash away the rain. Black hole sun, won't you come, wont you come" - Soundgarden

Drifting (poem)

I sometimes find I'm drifting
Through this life without effect;
I often wonder if I'm truly
Worth what I've been blessed.

I search through days that have been hard,
To try to understand,
The many trials that I have known,
The life that I have had.

You see me in my daily grind,
So confident and strong;
Yet when I am alone, I question
Just where I belong.

I often try too hard I find,
To analyze and guess,
To scrutinize, investigate
My life I will confess.

For somewhere deeper, there must be
Some meaning to this life,
Some way to make a difference,
Give a reason for this strife.

I am tired,
I am panting,
I am scared,
I am drifting.

Another You (poem)

"Why do you look at me like that?"
"Because I want to know what you are going through"
"Well...don't!"

"When you look inside a mirror, what do you see?"
"What do I see?
I see a man suffering through pain
The pain and anger of this world
A man who tries to live up to everyone's EXPECTATIONS
But never finds a way to put it through
A man with dark skin and black hair
Who has been through hell and back,
But still here
What do I see...?
I see a man looking into the world
Gathering it with open hands
Only to touch nothing
A man looking,
searching for love
when love keeps running away
And never leaving him without a broken heart
What do I see?
But a man
Apathy is his game
No feelings therefore
No lies, no love, no hurt, no joy and definately no pain."
"Is that all you see?"
"No...worst of all...
what do I see?
is ME."

A Dead Poet