Sad but still kinda Rockishly cool... hehehe

Hahhaa... don't know why... but i'm hurt. Not physically but more on mentally and heartly (ada ke? hehhee).

No Problem!!! hehehe. I'm still cool.


5 song lyrics running in my head:

- Don't even think about getting inside. Voices in my head. Ooh, voices. I got scratches all over my arms. One for each day since I fell apart. I did, oh, what I had to do. If there was a reason it was you. ( Footsteps - Pearl Jam)

- It's good to know that you are home for Christmas. It's good to know that you are doing wel.l It's good to know that you all know I'm hurting. It's good to know I'm feeling not so well. Because my inside is outside. My right side's on my left side. Cause I'm writing to reach you now but I might never reach you. Only want to teach you... about you, but that's not you... you know its true... that won't do. ( Writing to reach you - Travis )

- Hanging on. Here until I'm gone. Right where I belong. Just hanging on even though I watched you come and go. How was I to know, you'd steal the show. One day I'll have enough to gamble, I'll wait to hear your final call and bet it all. ( February Stars - Foo Fighters )

- Could we have known. Never would I, have helped to nail down. With nothing to gain, here's the clincher, this should be youn made cold and cripple This happened to be never changing Holding inside, the phobia, Made cold and crippled, ending it all. ( The Clincher - Chevelle )

- Some will learn, many do. Cover up or spread it out. Turn around, had enough, Pick and choose or pass it on. Buying in, heading for, Suffer now or suffer then. Its bad enough I want the fear...need the fear, cause he's alone... (where have we gone)... and he's alone (where have we come). ( Vitamin R - Chevelle )

When u think u can't go on....

You STOP!!! ... *sigh*

Anyway... i'm back in Penang after a long wonderful weekend. During my trip back to Penang... i pushed myself to sleep the whole journey... for the sighting on my side was so horridly discusting... Sitting beside me... was... 2 stupid indian gay partner. Seeing all those holding hands... cuddling eith each other... rasa nak bangun... terajang je. Hhehehee. Dah gatal sgt pun... buat laa masa org tak nmpak. Damn u gay guys. Not that i'm against "gaycism" <-- (ada ke?)... but please, manners... arrghh ... sure i can't sleep. Pejam mata je nmpak that 2 stupid bloke. Tension!!!

P/s: Syasya.... thanks for accompanying me the whole weekend. It was enjoyable and fun. Thank you sunshine. Nanti bob belanja pulak. Hehhee... take care. Miss you already.

tapi dia tak hensem? hkkehkhekhe

"He was not handsome"..Read it.. This is based on a true story.. If you like it, re-post it.. Perhaps you will find the love youhave been waiting for all this time..
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He was not handsome..But he had feelings..One day, he felt in love with a woman..A woman he really had a crush on..But he realized that he was not handsome..So he kept it deep inside his heart..

He was not handsome..Knowing this, he still approached the girl he admired.. Upon approaching her, he asked her name and asked for her number.. They came into contact with each other.. The guy was happy and he felt nice talking to the lady..

He was not handsome..He had to remember this all the time.. He knew he couldn't say out his wish to the lady..However, one day, he took up the strength to call that lady.. When he was about to pick up the reciever, the phone rang..It was her..His crush...His lady of his dreams..She asked him out on that night..There was no reason for him to say NO..That night, they went to a restaurant..for dinner..

He was not handsome..This was proven to him at that night..When the lady told him that she had a crush on a guy..He was crushed into pieces by his own crush..but he didnt say a word..He knew it..He was not handsome...

He was not handsome..and he knew he won't get his girl of his dream..So he intended to help the lady out..He took the lady to the guy whom she had a crush on.. After a week, he saw the lady dating with the guy..He knew that there is no more hope for him..

He was not handsome..and this made him loose his love..He just kept his feelings deep inside his heart..But it was okay for him..as his love was happy with the guy she loved..

He was not handsome..but maybe his powerful love brought his lady back to him..One day, the lady came all the way crying to him..She said to him that she lost her virginity and the guy dumped her..She was all in tears and didnt know where to go..

He was not handsome.. but he loved her..He wiped the tears off the lady and gave a warm hug..The lady felt the warm feel gush through her nerves and touch her heart deep inside..She realized that this is her true love..

He was not handsome..but he found his love finally..and he was happy ...

p/s: looks are not really the most important thing in love..Consider the feelings ofthe ppl around you..You might just findthat true love of yours..He may not behandsome..but he might love you more thananyone could ever love you.. and that is greater than some handsome idiots who doesn't love u.

Hmm... found this story from one of my friendster's buddies. Well... for those in the same situation as the guy... cheer up. It is how the world treat u. Reality check mate. Hehhehe.. Life can be cruel. Boleh buat drama nih. Sure laku kat cinema!!

"Boleh percaya ke? tapi saya cuba jugak" from Waheeda... iklan syampoo. hehhehe
(dulu selalu letak lirik lagu as ending quote... sekarang nak letak famous quotes la pulak)

As the day walks by....

Got a masterful bliss of migrain last night. Tak boleh tido nih... tension sungguh!

Today... my bassist called me at early morning. Member dah siap lagu baru, another sad tempo song entitled "February". Ada apa2 ke... hehhee mcm dedicated to smone je. Hope she'll finally see your true feelings towards her. Cheer up bro... jangan serabut serabut. Ko pun good looking gak... gaji sedap nak cecah 3 tuu.... hehehhe (kalau ovetime setengah mati la). Belanja laa...
Hope everything goes out well. I'll back u up.

About the song... kita dah banyak slow tempo song... i'll try to make other upbeat songs for our next album. This time... Cloudburst will be going worldwide. Get ready for i'll try to raise some funds for the opening of Raindrops Records. Nak jadi tauke nih.. hehhehe. Hope it will come true. My very own recording label.

"Could we have known
Never would I, helped to nail down
With nothing to gain
Here's the clincher, this should be you...

This happened to be never changing
Holding inside, the phobia
Made cold and crippled,
ending it all ... now saturate...the earth"

taken from Chevelle - The Clincher

Along the thin line...

Hmm.. nothing much. Woke up at 10 today... hahhahahhaa, buruk sungguh perangai.

Hmm... (hmm lagi...) I was like terjaga around 5 a.m. and all the sudden i can't feel my body. My hand feels lembut mcm a snake. I simply rasa that i got no bone. I was like... masyaallah... is this it? Will i be going this soon. Well... not to say that i don't want to go... but i still have to clean up all my dirty sins of my chest before i can go. Dosa banyak sangat ni... heehehe. I was afraid but at the same time i was calm. Entahlaa... i'm feeling drowsy today. Mungkin sebab tak cukup tidur. Hope that i'll be fine. Still got to say sorry to a lot of people... and perhaps for that... i can't go now. I hope.

See u folks later. Love and Peace...

Stupidly... this is how i feel right now!!!

Vindicated
Dashboard Confessional

Hope dangles on a string
Like slow spinning redemption
Winding in and winding out
The shine of it has caught my eye

And roped me in
So mesmerizing, so hypnotizing
I am captivated

I am Vindicated
I am selfish
I am wrong
I am right
I swear I'm right
I swear I knew it all along

And I am flawed
But I am cleaning up so well
I am seeing in me now the things you swore you saw yourself
So clear

Like the diamond in your ring
Cut to mirror your intentions
Oversized and overwhelmed
The shine of which has caught my eye
And rendered me
So isoloated, so motivated
I am certain now that

I am Vindicated
I am selfish
I am wrong
I am right
I swear I'm right
I swear I knew it all along

And I am flawed
But I am cleaning up so well
I am seeing in me now the things you swore you saw yourself
So clear

So turn
Up the corners of your lips
Part them and feel my finger tips
Trace the moment, fall forever
Defense is paper thin
Just one touch and I'd be in
Too deep now to ever swim against the current
So let me slip away (3x)
So let me slip against the current
So let me slip away (4x)

I am Vindicated
I am selfish
I am wrong
I am right
I swear I'm right
I swear I knew it all along

And I am flawed
But I am cleaning up so well
I am seeing in me now the things you swore you saw yourself
Slight hope

It dangles on a string
Like slow spinning redemption...
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Hehhehe... mamat ni pehal ni. Anyway... while Sembahyang Jumaat tadi... my stress and migraine has come back. For awhile there... couldn't raise my hand and my body feels numb. Rasa untuk seketika lumpuh sekejap. What will happen to me next... bersambung pada waktu yg sama minggu depan... dalam rancangan... hehehe. Well... takut... takut jugak... but... dah biasa. Hmm... still writing songs for today... hari ni ada mood self pity sket. So... semua lirik lagu hari ni sound depressing. Hehehe...

Surf's out dudes!!!

UNTUK SEKETIKA... AKU HILANG KAWALAN DIRI!!!

Rumble in my heart

Peter Pan
Ada Apa Denganmu

Sudah maafkan aku
Segala salahku
Dan bila kau tetap bisu
Ungkapkan salahmu
Dan aku sifatku
Dan aku khilafku
Dan aku cintaku
Dan aku rinduku...

Sudah lupakan semua
Segala berubah
Dan kita terlupa
Dan kita terluka
Dan aku sifatku
Dan aku khilafku
Dan aku cintaku
Dan aku rinduku...

Kutanya malam
Dapatkah kau lihatnya
Perbedaan yang tak terungkapkan
Tapi mengapa kau tak berubah
Ada apa denganmu ?!?
Oh..Hanya malam
Dapat meleburkan segala rasa
Yang tak terungkapkan
Tapi mengapa kau tak berubah
Ada apa denganmu ?!?

Dan aku sifatku
Dan aku khilafku
Dan aku cintaku
Dan aku rinduku...

Ni kiranya tgh jadi lagu favourite aku ngan khaliz (cloudburst) hehehhe... best la. Cuba la dengar. Bukan jiwang laaa... layan je!! khekhekhehke,

Currently writing a few lyric for the new Cloudburst's album... tunggu. Ingat nak buat lagu melayu satu.

Distortion in the air

Well.. i couldn't log into the net for 2 days... semuanya sebab the komputer at home ni rosak. So, now dah repair. There goes my extra budget for this month. Hhahhaa... but never mind. Duit... easy comes easy goes.

Im heading back to KL this 23rd for a wedding dinner. Kahwin jugak this lovely friend of mine ni. So... Selamat Berbahagia hingga ke anak cucu... Mrs Parveen Begum. Jangan nakal2 lagi. Obey yr husband... hehehhe. Takleh masuk iklan lagi. Waaahahahha. Parveen is now currently working as a stewardess for Singapore Airlines. Ex model nih... hhehee notably a few iklan... as a pantene girl tak salah and also featured in one of Anuar Zain's vid clips... Keabadian cinta ko? hhahahha... who cares.

Hmm... well, nousad...be happy bro. I know u're currently having great difficulties. If u need to talk... call. Kalau dah kedekut sangat... miss call me, i'll call you my friend. Hhhehhehe. Kita kawan2 tak berkira punya.... belanja makan!!! hahahhaa

Surf's off my friends!!! Poooff!!!

Keluhan hidup seorang mamat boring

Kak Sofiah bt Abdullah... i miss you a lot. Why did u must go first. hmm... takdir... nak buat mcm mana kan? Damn it!!!

Journey to the north end!!

Gonna drive back to penang tomorrow morning (Tuesday). Hope i can arrive safely. I don't know why... but just pray that i'm gonna be fine. Got a bad feeling but seriously... i got to get back to Penang.

May Allah guide my journey back home.

:(

Symphony of the depressed

CLOSURE!!!

Breathe, trust, bless me and release,
Climb, hard or never be seen.
Closed off, rescue to breathe.
Just bless me.

Two sided time,
Your rebirth can't hurt,
Branch out behind, the pain.

Closure has come to me myself,
You will never belong to me.
Closure has come to me myself,
You will never belong to me.

Had to to turn, lay down,
Your sting of disease.
Phase you out, should've seen this coming.
Go on confusing the soul,
Hold my breath 'til you rupture.

Three days aside,
Your rebirth can't hurt,
Branch out behind, pride.

Closure has come to me myself,
You will never belong to me.
Closure has come to me myself,
You will never belong to me.

Like a leach,
I hold on as if we belonged,
To some precious pure dream.
Cast off, you've seen what's beneath,
Now fail me.

Forget closure,
Forget closure,
Forget closure,
Forget closure.

Closure has come to me myself,
You will never belong to me.
Closure has come to me myself,
You will never belong to me.
So breathe.

Future Imperfect!!!

Well... im back in KL.

Im currently feeling bad again. My back is in pain. I hope i didn't get kidney stone again. I'm kinda like scared now. Having a kidney stone is basically one word - PAINFUL!!!
And to have kidney stone by yourself with no one taking good care of u (call ke, misscall ke, jumpa ke) is actually - DYING... hehehe. Been thru that. I am so like missing someone right now. Dah laa valentines day (bukan pernah kesah pun, tapi biasa laa... manusia, skali skala ter-jiwang). Hope someday i can fine smone to jaga me... mcm my very own nurse, hahahaha mimpi.

Hahahahha.... gla sungguh, sejak bila jiwang ni. Hhahhahha, sejak mula terasa nak kahwin. Hhahha. I'm like nak masuk 25... future kena fikr maa...

Semalam antar a copy of Cloudburst CD to Big's cousin. She is working at Wayang Tinggi Production, currently searching for new artiste to be featured in a show. Hope we can be in someday Cloudburst will make Malaysia proud. Go... CLOUDBURST!!!

Cloudburst invading Radio JB...hahaha

Yes... it is true... on last Thursday, Radio Malaysia Johor aired the eagerly anticipated first single of Cloudburst - "She".
Me, bigg (manager) and Khaliz (bassist) were like... Oh My God!!! Hahahhaha. Well that was it. The deejay was like.... "coming up next, lagu baru daripada sebuah band tempatan yang mengelarkan diri mereka sebagai Cloudburst dengan lagu mereka - she". Hhehehhee. Hebat sungguh!!!

Thank you to Bad (Syamsul Bakhtiar) for asking your wife to play that song. The deejay working that day was actually her wife. Hhahhaha. Thanks u guys. Senang kalau hidup ada cable ni.

I'm still in JB actually. Will be travelling back to KL around 3 p.m nanti. Gonna be a very tiring ride home. Yesterday, managed to squeeze up time and met Ainie (my cikgu). Sadly, i was only manage to see her about 15 minutes. Itu bukan jumpa namanya. Yet, i still owe her a cup of coffee. To cikgu Ainie.. thanks for make it possible. You're a good bowler. Kalau i manage to travel to JB lagi... lets go for a bowling match. hehhe (mesti bob kalah). Bola Ainie go slow je... tapi berhantu. hehehhehe. For others (Carney, dila and jenjen), sorry that i coudn't meet u guys up. Eventho i have never mentioned this, but, thank you. You guys have been great and it was such honor of knowing u all despite we haven't met or talk personally. Thanks. Next time ok bebehs.

Hmm.... got to pack my things up.... going back to KL. Damn...hehehe. This would probably be among my best visits to jb. I met lots of my friends and make new friends too.

Bob Cloudburst signing off.

A day to be remembered

The gig "Tragic Lullaby" ended with heart-warming experience that will never be forgotten by Cloudburst's members and friends. We rock!! Hehe.

The started at 8 (hhaah, tulis start pukul 5). The first band playing was Cost, a band from Shah Alam. This emo band really blew the stage out with their guitar riff, sadly... can't really understand what the singer's screaming about.

Second, was the awesome Ragamuffins (my current fav - ada la sebab, hahaha). Both guitarist, Olie and Izhar really shocked me away. Izhar was playing some vicious lick (berasap gitar tu... hehhe). The drummer (apa nama tah, riq kot?) really enjoyed himself. hahhaha. Everything was tip-top cuma the vocal tak clear sangat. The part when Sabrina (the keyboardist) play pun is actually kurang jelas. Tapi takpe... hhahhaha (gatal sungguh). From 1 to 10 i'd give Ragamuffins a 7/8 point. Macam juri Malaysian Idol.

Next, Rossu was on stage. Mateen (singer/guitarist) layan je. He moved around, react with the crown, and scream at his best for their performance. Hensem boy, Syah (bassist) was playing far at the back. Their best song of the night was probably their last song of the night. Mateen invited a girl friend of them on violin. Very cool indeed. Terpegun sehh!! hehhee. Salute Rossu.

Band no. 4 was Damsel In Distress. An Emo band from Shah Alam kalau tak salah. Well... they basically performed well. Layan sendiri. But the crowd enjoyed it.

Next... Cloudburst. Susah le kan bila nak review band sendiri. But, the crowd was awesome. Some tak habis habis keep on yelling "Bob... bob". Ada gak peminat ek? hheehe. Cool... cool. We played 3 own song plus a cover from Coldplay - Yellow. Ada gak a few mistakes because i couldn't hear my guitar. Above all... we enjoyed ourselves. The crowd was supportive. Siap ada few girls kirim salam tuu... hehhe rasa glamour pulak. Aku lepas show..... senyum je. Ramai yg ucap congrats. Thanks all.

The sixth band was Mushbuttons. Otai2 ni. Hehhe. Their performance was tight. Everything was perfect for them. I really enjoy myself listening to them. Suara vocalist/singer was awesome. Then, for the last show... they invited a friend of them, tak ingat pulak nama. His voice was marvelous. Sedap betul laa. He was singing in Malay kalau tak salah. Tabik mushbutton. You all rock the show.

The final closing act was Frantic, a metal band from Ipoh. I myself support nyon.... my friend. hahaha. Nyon played the bass well. The guitarist worked hard for the show... great riffing but a bit too loud i guess. Tapi memang layan. The crowd pun layan. Siap ada stage dive and surfing. Hahhaha. They only played 2 songs for that night. The show end at 10.30 p.m.

Basically... all the band that performed last night was superb. Thank you to all that has shown up. It was a night to be remembered mostly by Cloudburst. This is not the end of the road... we'll see u again, insyallah bulan 3 kalau jadi.

p/s: Tomwaitsallison tak main malam tu ntah taktau kenapa. Tapi as the organizer of the show, we salute u. Thanks joe.

No 1 joker in town

I don't know why... but.. i am all messed up. So many problems and actually, most of them are not mine. But being as a good person, i have always stood by my friends as strong as ever. Maybe i should stop? And care less? What should i do. I am actually... breaking.

Is it fair to care when there's no one that cares? huhh!!! Sick!!

But well... nevermind lah. This is Bobby, hahhaha. Ye ke? Ntah? Hhahahhaa. I don't care.

HILANG KAWALAN DIRI!!! hehehhe

p/s: to my friend Kh***z (nama terpaksa dirahsiakan), u should realize what's important and what's not. Stay in focus. Don't put yourself in a situation that will torture u, be strong. Woman are difficult to get. But when you get them, Allah's blessing will light you through the wonderful moments. In the future, you will look back and see all this great difficulties you have to endure, and for that will make the bond much stronger. (aku bagi nasihat.. no 1, a nasihat for myself, never have been able to do that - hehe)

What am i feeling now!!

I CHANGED BY NOT CHANGING AT ALL!!!

Hang yourself up!!

Hahahahahai...
I'm currently in KL, having a blast as always.
Plan for today:
- meet my old friend
- lunch with syasya and khaliz
- buy cd's (i think)
- my movie marathon (kalau jadi)
- update my blog.

Damn boring day... hehhee!

p/s: I've found out a way to express my negative feeling and cool down my anger. I just simply msg people. So, for those that i've always msged, thank you very much... without knowing anything, u've helped me soo... much. And for that... i thank you.

A Dead Poet singing his was out!!!