Attention: Confirm fixture

Well friends.
The eagerly waited gig for Cloudburst will be help at Paul's Place on the 6/2.
Show will start at 5 o'clock with 8 bands playing. Cloudburst will probably play at near 6. Come early and meet with the band. Leh sembang sembang right? hhehhehe. So hot!!! so hot indeed!!!

Place : PAUL's PLACE
JALAN KLANG LAMA
(opposite a huge International Hotel)
Date : 6 February 2005 (Sunday)
Time : 5.00 - (we'll see)

Bands playing:

1) CLOUDBURST - Progressive Rock / Brit Rock
2) TOM WAITS ALLISON - Progressive Indie (tapi skarang dia tgh EMO)
3) ROSSU - dengar kata style macam Muse
4) FRANTIC - Metal (tapi ok... group ni member baik baik semua, hahaha)
5) MUSH BUTTON - Ska / Punk (fun - fun gitu)
6) COST - taktau, tapi Joe ckp ganas
7) DAMSEL IN DISTRESS - EMO kot? (emosi)
8) RAGAMUFFINS - pun taktau

Come and join us.
Support local scene!!!

For we who foretold the future...

Hiyaa folks.
Like always... have been doing nothing for this past week. Got down with serious migrain 2 days ago. Nak ketawa pun tak boleh. Hehhee.Now doing fine. Got myself a new pair of glasses. Have to wear them to reduce head-ache (sis nadia told me this).

Ahh... today, i got my parents a handphone. Susah sangat nak contact them when they're not in the house. So, i decided why not repair my phone and just gave it to them. So now, my mom can make call to all those "penjual kain" under her. ish ishk.... hebat sungguh makcik ni ye. Sekarang dah pakai handphone. Hari tu datang kedai pakai driver (that is obviously me). Hahhahaha!
Me and my mom are getting along well... she's wondering why this time around, i did not marah marah and buat perangai anymore. hehhee. Taip tiap hari manis je i talk with them. hahhahha (ada chance dapat v6 nih by the end of this month). No lah. She's happy. Dad's happy - kot? Nak makan apa pun now my mom will gladly cook. Senang hidup.

And yesterday... manage to secure another problem. I got this 1 sister (not my adik kandung) that i treat her as a part of my family. The other half of me, if i could put it in better word. She's currently feeling down with all this love problems. I got to know that she has fallen in love with this guy, which actually has been married for years now. Thru this marriage... they got themself 2 children. I was against all this and manage to get myself into a big quarrel. So, after a few months... yesterday, i called her. And boy that she was glad to hear my voice again. Her abang is back. She has been scared of calling or even sms-ing me, afraid that i would get mad. She told me that she doesn't knew what to do anymore for the man wont stop chasing her. Guess this week i'll be makin a trip to my sis office. Need to do smthing about this. But above all, she's now happy (still with lots and lots of problem) that i am back around to care again. Well... i'm fine with it. My existence in life pun is actually to help people. This time... if i got mad with her again... at least i got this blog to express it all out. Hehhehe. I am just damn too nice ain't i? Should i stop caring for others? I don't think so.

Well... the moral of the story is... don't run away from your problems friends. Face them, even if it took time. Do it one step over another. We're just human aiight? We make mistakes. And we learn thru our mistakes. Jangan lari or try to pretend that everything is o.k.

It hurt for smone that cares for you, to know that u're having difficulties. I certainly do. That is why... i am all yours. If u ever need to talk to smone, and if u got no one, search for me. I'll be glad to call u up. No problemo. Belanja minum je..!!! hehhehe.

Bobby Cardozo... signing of with a msg of love.... hahahhahaha!!!
(blogging helps me to release unwanted tension - bloggin is so hot, thank you cikgu!!!)

"Selfishly walking through killing the angels
Picking and choosing
to screw
All of us
one by one
but why?"

Chevelle - Still Running

A Tragic Lullaby

Tragic Lullaby - 6/2/2004 (Sunday) at Paul's Place, Jalan Klang Lama, Kuala Lumpur. See You There!!!

Artist performing that night:
1 - Rossu
2 - Tom Waits Allison
3 - my very own - Cloudburst
4 - Mush Button
5 - Frantic
6 - Damsel in Distress

Singularity = being alone.

Well... hello friends.
Guess... i'll not be making any post to your blogs or friendsters for a while. Currently resting and recuperating. Hope to be back soon. Won't be able to update the blog too... Wish you all a happy and prosperity burger life ahead.

Will be back soon!!!

Take care.

Got a bullet in my head!!

Well... it is 3.00 a.m.
I really do need to sleep. This migrain i'm feeling right now has been outrageously painful today. Here i am sitting after trying to sleep since the last 2 hours ago. Been turning from left to right, and from right to left until i couldn't even move. Decided to on the computer... do something to ease the pain off... yet, still can't manage to put me away to bed. Ahh... really tired. Have been driving my mom the whole day. Only if she'd knew about my migrain. Ah... no need to get the old lady worried about me. Hahhaha (still manage to laugh my way off things)

Hmm... well.. if i couldn't sleep later on, i'll promise to write in again later at 4.00 a.m. Hope that i can have my sleep now. This is so killing me. If i didn't go to sleep now, gonna miss my Subuh prayers. We'll see.

NEED TO SLEEP NOW!!!

The Bitter End

Finally... after months. It is time that i will tell u about myself, since i got nothing to do!!! hahhahhaa!

My was born by the name MOHD SHYFUL ANNUAR BIN SUAID (shy gitu!!) on cold night of 29th of November 19**. Hhahhaha. I expect presents.

Got myself a sister 3 years after that.

I'm just an ordinary guy with lots of painful experiences while growing up. Now... doing fine i guess.

Still out of work. Those stupid Kementerian Pendidikan people!!! You're supposed to give a a JOBBBYYY!!! Remember? I need money!! I need to buy myself a new guitar and i need to go to Japan on June!!! Need to buy a Pocket PC... and more. Need to work... damn you people!! Heh .. heh hehe!!!.

Basically... i am just a simple person who need lots of things. Only these things will make me less aware of my problems and my life's difficulties. Bobby oh bobby... wake up!! Wake up and smell the bitter tastes of life!!!

State Of Love And Trust

My top favourite song!!! This song will keep me going... on and on...

State Of Love And Trust

Oh ...
State of love and trust as i
busted down the pretext
Sin still plays and preaches,
but to have an empty court, uh huh

And the signs are passin',
grip the wheel,
can't read it.
Sacrifice receiving
the smell that's on my hands ... hands,
yeah

And i listen for the voice inside my headNothin',
i'll do this one myself

Lay her down as priest does,
should the lord be a countin'
Will be in my honour,
make it pain, painfully quick, uh huh
Promises are whispered
in the age of darkness
Want to be enlightened
like i want to be told the end ... end, yeah
And the barrel shakes and,
a-directly at my head
Oh, help me, help me from myself
And i listen,
from both sides of a friend
Nothin', i'll do this one myself
Myself ... myself.

Hey, na-na-na-na, hey that's something
Hey, na-na-na-na, hey that's something
Hey, na-na-na-na, hey that's something
Wanna back, back it away, yeah
And i listen, oh,
for the voice inside my head
Nothin', i'll do this one myself
Oh, ah, and the barrel waits,
trigger shakes
Aimed right at my head,
won't you help me
Help me from myself

Hmm ... state of love and trust, and a ...
State of love and trust,
and a ...State of love and trust,
and a ...State of love and ... yeah.

Song: Pearl Jam
Words: Eddie Vedder
Album: Soundtrack from "The Singles"

Smile (song)

The song that really make me feel good about myself lately. Hehhehe!!!

Smile!!

Don't it make you smile? (2x)
When the sun don't shine,
it don't shine at all...
Don't it make you smile?

Don't it make you smile?
Don't it make me smile?
Yeah...When the sun don't shine,
it don't shine at all...
yeah...Don't it make me smile?

I miss you already,
yeah...I miss you always...
I miss you already,
yeah...I miss you all day...

This is how I feel...

I...I miss you already,
yeah...I miss you always...
The crooked heart swells all around,
yeah...I miss you all day...
The crooked heart swells around,
yeah...Don't it make you smile? (2x)

The crooked heart swells around...

Song by : Pearl Jam
Lyric by: Eddie Vedder
Album: No Code

What is this life's for?

What is this life's for?
dari Bobby Cardozo

What is this life's for?
Untuk tontonan umum? no...
Then what?
Untuk diherdik, dicaci,
Disepak diterajang?
Untuk mencari dan dicari?
Membantu atau dibantu?
Apa itu life?
Adakah patut dihargai?
Atau dibuang, dibenci?
Apa hidupmu susah?
Atau kaya segunung alam?
Ada kau mempersoal?
Bila engkau disoal.
For what brings you here?
Is it for the love?
Atau kerana perasaan rendah diri?
Katakan kawan ku?
Jangan seksa dirimu.
Life's a box of chocolate,
Sedap atau tidak,
biar ditelan sahaja.....

Moral: Org tak akan menganali dirimu jika kamu sendiri yang tidak mengenali dirimu.

"And I'd give up forever to touch you
'Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't want to go home right now"

iris by The Goo Goo Dolls

The Day I Try To Live

SELAMAT HARI RAYA HAJI folks!!!

Cannot say Maaf Zahir dan Batin because that's only for Raya Puasa. But anyway... just wanna say sorry if i've posted anything that has offended you all inside your blog. Allrite bebeh...

p/s: especially to cikgu ainie... been messing with her doodle board a lot. Hhehehe...


"And scars are souvenirs you never lose
The past is never far
Did you lose yourself somewhere out there
Did you get to be a star
And don't it make you sad to know that life
Is more than who we are" taken from Name by Goo Goo Dolls

Keluarga curang. keluarga riang (poem)

Keluarga curang, keluarga riang
by Bobby Cardozo

Ketawa riang, si kecil melompat,
Dihujung padang, mencari, berlari,
Namun disudut hati, anak kecil hilang,
hilang bersama, buaian sunyi.

Mama kata pulang,
papa mula terajang,
adik senyum sinis,
abang, sedih terhiris.

Tempik ayah memaki,
Diam ibu menyusu,
Adik suka hati,
Darah abang satu baju.

Abang terus sabar,
nak sabar sampai bila?
Abang hilang akal,
Abang hampir gila.

Kini abang sudah besar,
punya hati murni.
Abang kena kuat,
dia pemimpin keluarga ini.

Ibu ayah minta maaf,
luka abang sudah sembuh.
adik cepat cepat sedar,
abang tak punya tempoh.

Moral : *ntah* pasal keluarga je la ni. Sayangi anak2 anda. Utamakan keluarga. Pesanan daripada Kementerian Pembanggunan Wanita, Keluarga dan Masyarakat.

p/s: ada sesapa leh bagi title lain tak? title ni mcm tak best.

Suicidal Dream (poem)

Suicidal Dream

My life's a living hell
I never asked for much
Please, oh please, pass me a knife
A sharp seraded one would be nice

I take the blade
And slice my wrist from left to right
And then again that same night
I fear what will become of me

I wonder if my so called friends will even care
Then they see me standing there
They don't dare, do they care?
They then they looked
Looked at my wrists and walk away

Then the next day, they found out
When they left, I cut myself's up.

moral : adalah HARAM bagi umat islam untuk membunuh diri. Confirm HELL!! :)

In His Hands...

I helped my mom baked some cookies for Raya Haji. This is so... new for me. Never really spend much quality times at home. Have been away a lot... almost independently... by myself all my life. After this. gonna work... gonna earn more and save them. I've found out the truth about money spending. Came up with this idea 2 days ago. The ideas on how to save and earn more in the future. The ideas are:

When you got your salary, what should you do? You can do this...

1) Pay Yourself First - With the money that you earn, take some and put it into a banking account (budget). The problem with us (usually Malays), you tend to do your budget at the end of the day. It would be a blessing if you still got RM100 left at the end of the month. What you can do is, pay yourself first when you got the money. Example... You earn RM 1700. The best wa is, to pay let say... Rm300 and put it into an acount before you start spending your money. So, you only use the left over which is, the other RM1400. At the end of the month... if you can keep more from the Rm1400... better.

2) Make it as an automatic thing to do - The best way to do do this is... you go to the bank and go to the bank officer. Tell them you wanted to do a " stand off", that is you wanted... some of your paycheck to be devided to another account. For an example as below... after you earn your RM1700, ask the bank to withdraw Rm300 automatically and transfer it to account B. So every month... your RM300 will be placed automatically without you having to go to the bank. You don't waste your money... your time but at the same time... you save.

3) Forget about your account B - you don't need to remember that account. All you need to do is only... go to the band and check every month for confirmation that the RM300 has been transfered every month to that account. No need to use them. You need to be well decipline.

4) Make your money grow and work by itself - Yes... your account B will grow itself with divident. For example... if you put your account B in ASB, the divident for a year is 10% (actually 9. something). After a year... you will get around RM3960 = RM4000 lah. Withing 5 years... you'll get a +/- RM20000. Tak ke banyak tu? Sapa nak bagi kan? hehehe. Rm20000 buta buta je. If you can spend more.. u'd get richer. Waahhahahahhahahhaa tamak tamak!! ehehe :)

5) Finally, make yourself Insured - buy some insurance for yourself... you might need it in the future. Tuhan maha kuasa... apa2 boleh jadi right?

Ya, tuan tuan dan puan puan, itu tadi tips bagaimana utk menjadi kaya. Saya bukan tamak, cuma mahukan hidup yg baik. Jadi marilah kita melakukan yg terbaik utk masa depan kita, keluarga dan anak2. Apa melalut ni? ehehhe But, it is true. I sure don't want any of my family/kids to suffer. It is all up to you. I only want to share the techniques so that we all can live a better life.

With doing this, u'll live better... cuma, i comes with only 1 difficult problem that is, can you be well dicipline. Try it... gonna start doing it with my first salary.

p/s: extra tip from me. for the muslims, make a time for donations to the mosque. For every cent you give, Allah will give it back to you.

"Kekayaan, wang ringgit datang dari Allah la bapak, bukan dari bapak" taken from Ahmad Albab

Well... thats it.

Prof. Bobby Cardozo sign off - class dismissed

The pain and the suffering

Today was quite horrific. I was in pain and feeling uncomfortable. I've been cursing myself all day, haha.

I woke up at 6.45 for subuh and after that found myself to be quite tired. So, i decided to go back to sleep at 7.30. Here's the best part. During that sleep, i was having this wonderful dream. I was actually playing for Liverpool. All i can think off is, wow!! i'm on Liverpool Football Club. I was having a fantastic year. But, during a match between Liverpool and Arsenal... i got myself injured.

The striker of Arsenal (stupid Henry) as facing me one on one. I was the goalkeeper. When he tries to shoot, i manage to tap out the fast ball. But it fumble to the ground. I quickly stretch my body to the upmost posible way... to punch it. That is where Ashley Cole, had tackled me. And i fall. I fall off from the bed, and "terseliuh" my shoulder. Now - I am in a hell lot of PAIN!!!

Hmm... this must be the longest hour that i've spent on a single entry. Nak type pun rasa sore. Damn!!

Signing off peacefully.

Sick, tormented, alien soul is inside ME!!!

Hmm... actually, i got nothing to write to, but despite being all bored up... decided to create one entry.

As a musician and songwriter, i have a major library of songs to listen to. Songs can bring some impact to life itself. Often my mood can changed instantaniously when i listen to some song. Altho most of my type of music can be considered as a bit Grungy and Rockishly tunes, but hey, i do listened to those malay songs, rnb, classic oldies and perhaps... a bit of hip hop.

Most influences comes from grunge bands like Nirvana, Pearl Jam and Foo Fighters. It helps a lot in song making. And when me song make... it would help me in releasing those negative moods.

Here's 10 list of my favourite band/group/singer. Feel free to add in yours inside the comment box... bleh kita sembang.

1) Nirvana <--- a must for all grunge/alternative listeners.
2) Pearl Jam <--- also a must
3) Foo Fighters
4) Chevelle <---- the group makes a very wonderful depressing mood
5) Counting Crows <--- gives the extra edges when i need to soften out
6) A Perfect Circle <--- melodically extraordinary
7) Asian KungFu Generation <--- japanese band... cool rock tunes
8) Incubus
9) Slipknot <--- bila rasa nak marah
10) Silverchair <--- nice

ada lagi sebenarnya. Cloudburst pun ada gak, hehee tapi takbleh laa tulis band sendiri kan? Anyway... hope all of you will have great days in front of you. Enjoy yourself!!!

"Even Though
I Watched You Come And Go
How Was I To Know
You'd Steal The Show

One Day
I'll Have Enough To Gamble
I'll Wait To Hear Your Final Call
And Bet It All"

February Stars by Foo Fighters

Just my imaginations

Hello people in da house, office, apartments, and cyber cafe's.

Today was a tireful day. Now. i'm back in Penang for Raya Haji. Started driving at 8 a.m and reached Penang by 11.00 a.m. Luckily there were not much cars around me (for i can drive a bit faster than my usual speed). Huhhuhuuhuhu. Man... really do need to buy myself a new car. I'm bored of driving manual now, thinking on getting an automatic transmission car. On my top list is most probably Perdana V6 but.. hmmm ntah la. Next is Kia Spectra. and lastly... have to take my father's Kia Sportage. He's probably gonna get a Merc real soon. Ini tidak adil.... aahh.

Anyway... now at home, basiccally doing nothing. Im considering to install Astro here. Duit lagi. Hhahahhahaha... miskin le tahun ni.

By the way... Cloudburst will be playing at Paul's Place on the 5th of Febuary (Saturday). The show starts at 9 and the admision fee would be around RM10. Come and watch us play while enjoying yourself. Other participating band:

Rossu - playing slow rock music
Tom Waits Allison - Progressive / Alternative / Emo Rock
Mush Button - a ska / puck rock group
Frantic - metal group
Cloudburst - slow rock

Support our local scene.

Signing away from the edges!!!

Freezing Feeling

My LIVERPOOL has lost to MAN UTD. Damn it. But, anything can happen in the game of football. Morientes was playing well and he'll become an important asset of Liverpool. Go! Go! Liverpool!!

The end is the beginning of the end

"I have stood here before in the pouring rain
With the world turning circles running 'round my brain
I guess I'm always hoping that you'll end this reign
But it's my destiny to be the king of pain"

King Of Pain by The Police, later sang by Alanis Morissette

Revolving doors

Hahaha...it is 6.15 a.m.
Still haven't have the slightest feeling of sleepy. I'm tired but i can't sleep.

Yesterday, after Sembahyang Jumaat... got back home and watched some cd's. Then, decided to go to Bigg's house. Went there, and we later on decided to go Low Yat and Berjaya Times Square (2 budak yg boros - hahaha).

Balik to his house, watched tv, play some games, download smthing from the net (not pornograffic materials - i repeat, no PORNO).

So... guess i wont be sleeping today. ITs 6.20 a.m. Solat Subuh weeii!! (bukan ada org baca pun pagi2 ni)

Signing off!!

"I know someday you'll have a beautiful life,
I know you'll be a star,
In somebody elses sky,
but why, oh why,
can't it be,
Oh why can't it be in mine" taken from Black by Pearl Jam

Diary Of A Madman (poem)

A Diary Of A Madman
by Bobbo Cordozo

Angst driven,
fueled by rage,
descended by fear,
through rough nightmares.

Equip might,
mounted punches,
eagerly awaits.
the tyrants roar.

Running through,
the forbidden route,
beseiged the past,
he roared unmasked.

Untamed feeling,
unmould depressing,
the tiger's falling,
encaged,
growling.

The king is down,
endlessly he frown.
bindly he was,
restrained,
detained.

For now he's dead,
No one would ever bother,
For someone u'd looked upon,
You threw him down the sewer.

And this was the life of a savior, that
you took him all for granted
a tool, a fool, he's cheated
yet never he'll be remembered

______________________


Kawan, kawan jugak tapi apa gunanya kawan bila tak mampu tolong kawan lain. Kenapa
bila susah baru kita cari kawan? Kenapa bila sunyi baru kita cari kawan? Kenapa kawan
yang kita cari dulu bila ada masalah? Hhahaha... ntahla. Bila senang... gembira. Adat
manusia. For how much i have tried to changed this... semua org tak lari dari benda yg
serupa. Harap2 i would never do this to all my fellow friends, for they were the only thing,
i've ever had. Bukan senang nak jaga hati kawan kan?
Fariq Azad, Nazarudin, Moky, thank you. You all have been very thoughtful. Tak kira
senang-susah, u'd be free to call or msg (kecuali Fariq Azad, kedekut - hehehe).
Always reminded myself that i still got something to hold on.

Ni apa mellow sangat ni.

Hhahahha. Bukan apa, been thinking a lot lately. With all those tsunami's, earthquate la, war la...fake Quran la, hish-- i can't stop wondering, Hari Qiamat is getting nearer. Still, i haven't changed. Been worried a lot. Kawin pun belum... betul ak Bigg (Fariq Azad) hehehhehehhe, ko yg nak kawin sgt kan? hehehe.

This writting bukan ditujukan untuk sapa2 but to myself really. Bukan nak menunjukkan emosi kepada semua org, bukan nak menunjukkan kelemahan diri pada semua org. Kita cuma manusia, kita buat silap. Kengkadang buat silap yang sama again and again. Hahhaha.

Signing off...

"anak itik tok wi, mandi dalam kolam, sakit apa tok wi, sakit sendi tulang" dipetik daripada lagu kanak2 dari Malaysia vol. 3
(hehe... takde ingat lirik lagu apa nak ditulis, so... hentam je la)

You Will Never Walk Alone

I'm just astonished and happy... for now i ment. Me and fellow Liverpool supporters (Fariq Azad, Naza and Moky) would like to welcome Fernando Morientes to Liverpool. You will never walk alone. This the best news ever that hit me within these past 3 month (i was such a boring person, hehehe).

My Liverpool Side:

Morientes / Djibril Cisse /Milan Baros / Mellor / Pongolle

Kewell/Riise Xabi Alonso/Igor Biscan Steven Gerrard / Hamann Nunez / Luis Garcia

Traore/Warnock Sami Hyppia / Pellegrino Jamie Carragher Finnan / Josemi

Dudek / Kirkland

hahahhahaah ... i'm such a football fanatic. LIVERPOOL!!!


Signing Off!!